Wow, apparantly it has been a month since I have blogged. I swear it didn't seem that long but the days really are flying by. I try to read some of my favorite bloggers a couple of times a week but am finding that time for that is slim, too.
With my birthday just a couple of days away I am feeling rather emotional. Daddy died one year ago on Tuesday and I am reminded how quickly our lives can change and how we need to appreciate those that we are blessed to have in our lives.
Today I got two birthday cards, even though my birthday isn't until Tuesday. One was from my mother and father in law and the other from Handy Hubby who just couldn't wait to give it to me. :) Both made me cry because they were so beautiful and I know the people who picked them out are the type to actually read the words and look for the ones that really apply. Thus making the two that I got mean so much more. I am so blessed to have them all in my life, that when God spoke to my heart, I listened because not only did he fill my heart with love for this awesome man, he gave me another set of parents. I hear so many of my friends bitch and moan about their in-laws, how they do this and that, blah, blah, blah but truly I can't relate. They are great people who treat me like a daughter, they are great grandparents and great friends. I can honestly say that I love them and appreciate them.
Handy Hubby's card was beautiful and personified us. How lucky we are that God gave us a second chance to get this right after high school. I think that we both needed to spread our wings, hang out with friends, find out who we were as individuals, go new places and experience life outside of this small community, realize how small we really are in the great scheme of life. I am so grateful for the opportunity that I had to work for a fantastic company, to gain the wealth of retail and management knowledge/skills that it provided as it is proving very useful in my new adventure. I love that I got to travel to new places. I think that we both needed the space to understand how important we truly were to one another, how much of each other's hearts that we truly possessed and needed the experience of our individual accidents to know how to value life and enjoy each day. It's amazing that with this 36th birthday, I will have loved this man and better yet, been loved by him for 20 years. Our official first date was on my 16th birthday but I know I loved him from almost the moment I met him... No matter what my gift this year, there is no greater gift than the one that he has been giving me and gives me everyday...his love and his life to share. I love the fact that even after all of these years we can still make each other laugh, still finish each other's sentences and still are as mad about each other as we were when we were teenagers, that thinking of him can still make me catch my breath..... I am ever so grateful that God used me as HIS tool to love and guide this amazing man thru the battle of recovery from his TBI, that HE thought me worthy of the job because thru the tumultous journey a stronger bond, a greater respect and a deeper passion for the life we share emerged. "it is the seed, that with the sun's love, becomes the Rose...."
Another thing this last year and Daddy's death has really brought home to me is that it is ONLY these precious people in our lives; parent's, parent in laws, spouses, siblings and children, even special friends that make our live valuable. It isn't how much money you make each day, what neighborhood or home you live in, what you drive or what designer name might be stamped across the butt of your pants that define you and make your life mean something. It is the time you spend valuing these people, appreciating the moments that you have with them and the imprint that you make upon their lives and the lives of others that you touch. Life is fragile and precious...Revel in the goodness and the blessings that are yours and choose not to dwell on the negatives. Don't allow one second of your life to be wasted giving space or thought to negative forces, it simply isn't worth those seconds, not even one.
I sound a bit melancholy tonight, I guess I am. I realize how blessed I truly am with this life, my husband, my amazing children and the rest of my family. I realize how quickly our lives can change and be altered and while I revel in the promise of Heaven, I am fearful of losing anyone. A friend in my parenting group is losing her 6 year old daughter to a terminal brain tumor, it sounds as if this sweet child will be earning her angels wings soon (How I pray for a miracle and this not to be the case). I can't imagine the loss, the pain... Please send up a special prayer for this sweet, beautiful child and for the family that loves her so dearly.
If I have nothing else, I have love...
With my birthday just a couple of days away I am feeling rather emotional. Daddy died one year ago on Tuesday and I am reminded how quickly our lives can change and how we need to appreciate those that we are blessed to have in our lives.
Today I got two birthday cards, even though my birthday isn't until Tuesday. One was from my mother and father in law and the other from Handy Hubby who just couldn't wait to give it to me. :) Both made me cry because they were so beautiful and I know the people who picked them out are the type to actually read the words and look for the ones that really apply. Thus making the two that I got mean so much more. I am so blessed to have them all in my life, that when God spoke to my heart, I listened because not only did he fill my heart with love for this awesome man, he gave me another set of parents. I hear so many of my friends bitch and moan about their in-laws, how they do this and that, blah, blah, blah but truly I can't relate. They are great people who treat me like a daughter, they are great grandparents and great friends. I can honestly say that I love them and appreciate them.
Handy Hubby's card was beautiful and personified us. How lucky we are that God gave us a second chance to get this right after high school. I think that we both needed to spread our wings, hang out with friends, find out who we were as individuals, go new places and experience life outside of this small community, realize how small we really are in the great scheme of life. I am so grateful for the opportunity that I had to work for a fantastic company, to gain the wealth of retail and management knowledge/skills that it provided as it is proving very useful in my new adventure. I love that I got to travel to new places. I think that we both needed the space to understand how important we truly were to one another, how much of each other's hearts that we truly possessed and needed the experience of our individual accidents to know how to value life and enjoy each day. It's amazing that with this 36th birthday, I will have loved this man and better yet, been loved by him for 20 years. Our official first date was on my 16th birthday but I know I loved him from almost the moment I met him... No matter what my gift this year, there is no greater gift than the one that he has been giving me and gives me everyday...his love and his life to share. I love the fact that even after all of these years we can still make each other laugh, still finish each other's sentences and still are as mad about each other as we were when we were teenagers, that thinking of him can still make me catch my breath..... I am ever so grateful that God used me as HIS tool to love and guide this amazing man thru the battle of recovery from his TBI, that HE thought me worthy of the job because thru the tumultous journey a stronger bond, a greater respect and a deeper passion for the life we share emerged. "it is the seed, that with the sun's love, becomes the Rose...."
Another thing this last year and Daddy's death has really brought home to me is that it is ONLY these precious people in our lives; parent's, parent in laws, spouses, siblings and children, even special friends that make our live valuable. It isn't how much money you make each day, what neighborhood or home you live in, what you drive or what designer name might be stamped across the butt of your pants that define you and make your life mean something. It is the time you spend valuing these people, appreciating the moments that you have with them and the imprint that you make upon their lives and the lives of others that you touch. Life is fragile and precious...Revel in the goodness and the blessings that are yours and choose not to dwell on the negatives. Don't allow one second of your life to be wasted giving space or thought to negative forces, it simply isn't worth those seconds, not even one.
I sound a bit melancholy tonight, I guess I am. I realize how blessed I truly am with this life, my husband, my amazing children and the rest of my family. I realize how quickly our lives can change and be altered and while I revel in the promise of Heaven, I am fearful of losing anyone. A friend in my parenting group is losing her 6 year old daughter to a terminal brain tumor, it sounds as if this sweet child will be earning her angels wings soon (How I pray for a miracle and this not to be the case). I can't imagine the loss, the pain... Please send up a special prayer for this sweet, beautiful child and for the family that loves her so dearly.
If I have nothing else, I have love...
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